*I’ve been debating whether to publish this post, its been sitting in my drafts folder whilst I decided whether to post it or not*
I love my geek with all of my heart, he is my soul mate, my best friend, he is the most caring, loving, devoted husband and father to the boys who works so hard every single day, however if there are two things that frustrate me about him they would be: 1- how much time he spends working and the lack of family time we get because of that. 2- his “leave it to the last minute” attitude when it comes to Birthday’s and Christmas.
Let me give you a little example of what I mean… Today here in the UK it is Mother’s Day, he has had long enough to sort things out, to purchase gifts and cards, however in typical Mark fashion he didn’t think to pick up Mothers Day cards when he has been out doing the weekly supermarket shop these past few weeks, instead he left getting cards until our weekly supermarket shop yesterday, the day before Mother’s Day when there were none left on the shelves!
Now my Mother’s Day started rather early, Ethan and Grayson came bounding in full of excitement with school made cards as Mark asked me – “Do I need to wrap your Mothers Day gifts?” followed by ” Do you have any wrapping paper and tape?”, – I mean seriously, do you really need to ask!? Why haven’t you already sorted this out!?
After getting the boys to give Nin-Nin her cards ( I’m organised!), flowers and chocolates it was my turn. Upon unwrapping and opening the chocolates and the Disney Tradition figure I had specifically TOLD Mark to get me from the boys for Mothers Day he then proceeded to inform me he had ordered me another gift but it won’t be turning up until tomorrow. It transpired that he didn’t actually order my Mothers Day gifts until Thursday and there was a mix up with this other gift not being dispatched next day delivery like he had paid for which means it’s currently somewhere in the UK right about now. The thing is I know thats not Mark’s fault however I guess that is also a risk you take when leaving these things until the last minute and not ordering things until three days before yet have literally had weeks to actually sort it out!
The thing is what REALLY frustrates me is I deal with every other card and present that needs to be brought for family and friends throughout the year, Birthdays, Christmas, even buying Easter Eggs, the lot! he doesn’t have to deal with any of it so I don’t think it’s too much to ask him to be a bit more organised with these things.
Now I really don’t want to come across ungrateful, this is not my intentions at all and I am thankful for what I did receive today, a card did eventually arrive through the door at 7pm courtesy of Amazon Prime. Although it says “Mama” on it! Im not a Mama, never have I been a Mama, I don’t know why he didn’t think to get them to make me one!
I’m also just a little saddened that today has pretty much been just like any other day and that it feels like very little attempt was made to make it that little more special.. On Facebook today I saw photos posted by Mum friends of breakfasts in bed after long lay-ins, surprise afternoon tea deliveries, meals that were cooked for them. Being in lockdown we are here stuck at home so we couldn’t go out for a meal to celebrate like we usually would, so who cooked dinner for everyone? that would have been ME! I even spent the majority of the day all alone watching TV stuffing my face with the chocolate I got today feeling sorry for myself as Mark shut himself away in the office working like always, after being given her Mother’s Day cards, flowers and chocolates Nin-Nin buggered off outside to do some gardening and the boys, well they spent the majority of their day upstairs playing Fortnite, no one even seemed to want to spend the bloody day with me.
The thing is I always go out of my way making other peoples Birthday’s, Father’s Day’s special, I put so much thought and effort into these things that some reciprocation wouldn’t have gone a miss today! This past year has been hard, home schooling and juggling family life and a home on my own whilst Mark has worked has been hard but I’ve done it – sorry just feeling a little deflated and un appreciated today! Tomorrow’s another day!